Thus Far

I've been through a lot, and recently some really tough hardships. That's why I'm creating this. I place for me to vent, without everyone I know asking me questions or tell me what to do. Yes, myspace is great but I really can't say what I want to say because everyone takes it the wrong way or their like 'Are you talking about me'? Drive me crazy!!!! But I was browsing on line and saw something that made me think of an OLD OLD OLD friend of mine that told me he had a blogger and I felt this would be an awesome place to write everything I've been wanting to write. So here I am.


As for my life. College is really tough. A lot harder than I would have ever expected. I'm not just talking about the class work, but the people around me. It's my fault I guess. But it's really hard to be a christian when I'm attending a Mormon college. BYU (Brigham Young University).

But it is a very well known school, and the academics are outstanding. I was told that a majority of the students were mormon, I wasn't told that the majority was 98%!! I thought it'd be easier that my roomates and classmates would respect my choice and not try to influence me. I had already knew a lot about thier religion and I've always been under the impression they were like that. I was wrong.

When I began talking to my roommate...who by the way is totally awesome, she was quite suprised that I wasn't Mormon. I explained to her how I felt and she seemed to take it well. But the following day she asked me rather or not I was willing to speak to the Elders. (Elders-After Mormons become of a certain age they are allowed to go on a two year mission, teaching those around thier mission area about the Book of Mormon). I respectfully told her no. I must admit that yes, I had thought of asking her to attend the christian church I had found, but was somewhat afraid she's think me rude. So I chose not to.

She since then as been not exactly ranted but hinted I should attend her church at least once. I shall not. I can't allowmyself to do that. Not that I don't respect her or anything but what should happen if a follow christain were to see me going there?

I realize this is an awesome place to witness. But this is going to be very difficult. But I'm not even sure of how to approach anyone about the subject. I'm not sure if it's that I'm afraid I may not explain something correctly or what. I'm just really not sure. There are over 50,000 students there, and looking though recent records and what not I've found out of that 50,000 only...this is amazing!!! Only 300 give or take a few are christian or something close to that.

BYU is an amazing school. Utah its self is awesome! I love it here, but it's so hard sometimes when most of the student events and what not are Mormon based. I feel like I have no surport here. Like I'm loosing my grip. And I'm scared. I want to transfur, but this school for some reason beyond me caught my eye. And when I got the scholarships and realized I wouldn't be paying to go to sure an elite school, I couldn't say no. I was accepted to two other school. The University of Kentucky and The University of Duke, which I shall not attend on pure principal! I watch to much College Basketball. (^_^).

So inconclusion, I'm confussed...very! Before leaving, everyone talked of making great friends and dating and what not. They were half right. As long as I'm attending this college I shall NOT be dating. As for friends I believe I've made a few. The young ladies from Japan that I'm helping teach english are really awesome (Yes, I know Japanese) They aren't religous at all. Their parents will not stand for it. So I may have to work on that.


Jennifer